Monday, May 23, 2011

Happy ICLW!!!

I'm excited it's ICLW!  I'm again a little late.  Not AF late, but posting late. We're two days into ICLW, and I'm just now writing. We've had so much happen in the past few weeks, that I haven't found the time to write.

Welcome to my blog!  Mucho gusto :)

Here's a little bit about our current TTC roller-coaster.

We're 20-month experts on the thing called 'baby dancing'... Ha... We met a fabulous RE in January, and he has done a series of test - including blood work and a saline infused sonography. On my saline infused sonography he saw something that he found alarming. Dr. B suspected Asherman's Syndrome (scar tissue) in my uterus.  He sent me to a specialist to get a Hysteroscopy a few weeks ago. (It actually wasn't too bad. At least not as painful as the HSG).  At the Hysteroscopy, the doc took a few pictures and within a few minutes she revealed that there was no scar tissue to be found! What?!?! Ghost scar tissue? I have no idea how it just disappeared.  Maybe the wheatgrass? Maybe the prayers? Probably both. I don't know.

DH and I were glad to find out that all is well with my uterus. Now we're back to square 'uno' and trying to figure out square 'dos'.  It's like the game of Twister.  Our bodies have to undergo so much testing and most time requires a little maneuvering.  We have to maneuver every.single.part of our life to try to find a baby at the end of this frustrating game.  Will it be next cycle?

DH's 3rd semen analysis came back okay.  Again, not fantastic, but average. Count was great, motility could be better. We're thinking about doing an unmedicated IUI sometime in the next few months.  If that doesn't work, square 'tres' will be a medicated IUI.  If that doesn't work, well, we'll see...

We timed BD this month.  Everything looked great - weather (cm), and everything else ;).  I'm currently 10 dpo.  I still haven't tested.  On 5 and 6 dpo I felt some cramping and twinges.  I almost had a little party, but then checked myself back to reality.  I want to be hopeful, but I don't want to get my hopes up because it just hurts too much to be disappointed yet again.  I haven't had any other symptoms besides the ones on those two days.

Either way, we keep on chugging.  I'm giving my uterus a little pep talk right now - my new nickname for my 'u' is the 'little uterus that could.' After all the test and intrusive examinations, she's still chugging along working like she's supposed to... well, besides not being able to house a little embryo, but I'm not gonna hold it against her.  At least not this time.

We'll be there some day. Oh shucks, here I go being hopeful again. It's a roller-coaster.

Good luck to all of you!  I hope I have time to visit new blogs this week.  I really want to get to know more of you awesome ladies... and gents.

Friday, May 20, 2011

Versatile Blogger

Both Stress Free Infertility and C awarded me The Versatile Blogger award several weeks ago, but I didn't get a chance to write a post because of what my hometown has endured recently. I know I'm super late (almost time for May ICLW), but here it is...

The rules:
1. Link back to the person who gave you the award

Thank you both! I am truly honored.

2. Tell 7 things about yourself

1. I hate chewing gum
2. I'm terrified of heights
3. I've lived in 3 countries
4. I don't like fast food and I love to cook!
5. I become "cleaning insane lady" a few days before AF arrives
6. I love reality TV.  I watch all kinds of mindless shows. Makes me feel better about my life.
7. I didn't like onions until a few years ago. I now love grilled onions!

3. Award other bloggers - The Versatile Blogger award is for 15 'recently discovered bloggers'  - I chose 14
Blogs I discovered during April ICLW are:

2. Misconceptions About Conception -
3. My daily mooosings in the Netherlands
5. From Ms. to Mrs.... & back to Ms. -
6. Chasing Our Stork: Our Journey with Infertility -
8. I Want to be a Daddy -
9. Rochelle at For all the things we hope for -
10. Poor Lucky Me -
11. The Bushey Life -
12. The Inadequate Conception -
13. Waiting for Stork -

I look forward to following each and every blog.  Good luck to all!
Happy early May ICLW!

Sunday, May 8, 2011

Hanging on to Faith

"Now faith is being sure of what we hope for and certain of what we do not see." Hebrews 11:1

I hope to one day become a mother.  I cannot predict when this will happen for me - I can't see it.  Yet I hang on to that hope.  I am certain that one day I will see it happen.

Happy Mother's Day to all the mothers and to those that hope to be mothers.

Monday, May 2, 2011

CD1 and I don't care... just happy to be alive.

I have a new perspective after the tornado ravaged my city on Wednesday, April 27, 2011, destroying buildings, homes, and lives. 

Today, I am not dwelling on the fact that I suffer from infertility.

Today, I am glad to be alive.  

I've been busy the past few days giving my all to my city.  I've volunteered to help collect and distribute donations of food, water, flashlights, toiletries, baby items, etc.  Basic essentials that we all tend to take for granted. I wish I could do more. I wish I could comfort those that lost children, parents, grandparents, and friends. I offer hugs, but I know that they won't bring back the people that were lost.  And it hurts.

I am in total disbelief that God spared my life.  The tornado that hit Tuscaloosa, was predicted to hit where I live, but instead took a turn, and touched down about 1/2 mile from our home.  I just can't believe that we have absolutely no damage, when others have lost all of their belongings. Every.single.thing they own. Some didn't even have shoes on, but you could tell that they were just thankful to be alive. To be breathing.  

Babies were torn from the arms of their mothers.  Other children have lost both parents and are now orphans. It breaks my heart to the core. I can't imagine. 

I'm still in shock. I've been a total zombie for days.

So far, all of my friends and family members have been accounted for.

I praise the Lord for his devine protection!